Is it just who we are OR is it who we want to be

there was this question....and it is bugging me recently...the question is..."IS IT WHO I AM OR IS IT WHO I WANT TO BE?"...alright i will explain...sometime we see people doing things that we think are stupid and pointless...on our minds we will ask ourselves WHAT THE HELL is that guy doing that for?why don't he/her get a life?

well..being someone with this kind of experience...i would say that people do this kind of things for their own goal...for an example..a kid wants his parent's attention until he is willing to take things till the extreme level like hurting himself or some other extreme stuffs...well i hope you all get my point now..

if u ask me...honestly i will answer you...i feel that like i am the type who is "attention seeking"

...alright..to start with attention seeking,here is what i have done...well i am not proud of this...during 2010 just because i wanted some attention,i was willing to even lie to the person i care for...seriously...why did i do that?when i think back i feel that i am so freaking stupid

...well...its all over now..but my past is still bugging me...i need somewhere to release all this tension...i hope here is the best place...

i have read on someone's blog recently about this attention seeking topic...well to my surprise i matched almost every single symptoms of attention seeking...during that time...i seriously felt that i should change..if i continue like this i will only end up destroying myself...but although i have almost ran out of ideas to help myself...i still feel like i am the same old person...so this question popped up in my mind...


IS THIS WHO I AM? OR IS IT WHO I WANT TO BE?


is it possible that some humans are born this way?is it certain human's nature that cant be changed?i know i sound kinda stupid asking this type of question...but seriously...sometimes i do feel that there is some truth to it....i hope to get your opinion on this thing...