Is it just who we are OR is it who we want to be

there was this question....and it is bugging me recently...the question is..."IS IT WHO I AM OR IS IT WHO I WANT TO BE?"...alright i will explain...sometime we see people doing things that we think are stupid and pointless...on our minds we will ask ourselves WHAT THE HELL is that guy doing that for?why don't he/her get a life?

well..being someone with this kind of experience...i would say that people do this kind of things for their own goal...for an example..a kid wants his parent's attention until he is willing to take things till the extreme level like hurting himself or some other extreme stuffs...well i hope you all get my point now..

if u ask me...honestly i will answer you...i feel that like i am the type who is "attention seeking"

...alright..to start with attention seeking,here is what i have done...well i am not proud of this...during 2010 just because i wanted some attention,i was willing to even lie to the person i care for...seriously...why did i do that?when i think back i feel that i am so freaking stupid

...well...its all over now..but my past is still bugging me...i need somewhere to release all this tension...i hope here is the best place...

i have read on someone's blog recently about this attention seeking topic...well to my surprise i matched almost every single symptoms of attention seeking...during that time...i seriously felt that i should change..if i continue like this i will only end up destroying myself...but although i have almost ran out of ideas to help myself...i still feel like i am the same old person...so this question popped up in my mind...


IS THIS WHO I AM? OR IS IT WHO I WANT TO BE?


is it possible that some humans are born this way?is it certain human's nature that cant be changed?i know i sound kinda stupid asking this type of question...but seriously...sometimes i do feel that there is some truth to it....i hope to get your opinion on this thing...

me during form 3 almost going to form 4

ahhhh...after PMR....heaven for a short moment on earth for every form 3-ers...

and where all the books goes

enough wit the joy alrdy la haiyorrrr....know la you happy..*another side of me*
ok here it goes...after PMR results were out....*shaddap* dun ask me bout my results..highly classified :X

...ok continue on...the school started giving out handouts for us to pick our streams to take for form 4 namely Science stream,Engineering technology stream and Arts stream...well basicly i thinking to myself...(haiya science stream for all the pro's only...masuk wat lah..some more not interested in Bio also)...so Science stream was the 1st to be eliminated from there..

all right moving on,now there is only 2 left...SE(science engineering) stream and arts...honestly i was blur-ing which stream to pick for like erm...2 days? *WTH*...finally decided to consult parents for help..and as i predicted...they suggested...SE...i asked why and my parents answered...IT SOUNDS COOL LA!... *mouth drops on floor*

alright..moving on...as time passes i have decided.........*DRUM ROLLS*....THE SCIENCE ENGINEERING STREAM...yay!!finally made a decision...(macam la hebat sangat..orang sebelum form 4 pun sudah tau nak belajar apa=.=...)....alright la...i know la i abit slow in this kind of things...i think 2 words best suit me...not interested LOL!!....will be writing bout my form 4 life soon...stay tuned if there is anyone there *desperate for viewers*

Story Of Life

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be, your neighbor, your coworker, a long lost friend, or a complete stranger. When you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.

Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved,straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become.

Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen.

Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.

Most importantly if you Love someone tell him or her, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.

Something new

Well,there are many things in my life i wanted to share but i just cant seem to do it thru my mouth *wth mouth got gold*....and here i am..finally decided to turn to blogging..hope its not hangat-hangat tahi ayam la

because that is what usually happens when i try something new...maybe someday i would b like.. "ARGH!!!SCREW THIS!!"...but then i also turned to blogging because i feel like i can release all the stress here without letting people kutuk me as "ATTENTION SEEKING" *wut!!!* i have read many blogs before and seriously some of them are really meaningful...especially those topic about their life...well i would like to blog like them someday...as for now...i am still trying very hard to make my blog not boring *failing very fast*as for now...this is all..will be updating it very soon